She’s a glutton for punishment
At least, that’s what the neighbours say
They watch her stride across achievements in a daze
Cry with bereavements at the sight of no change
Nothing is good enough to her
It seems – but what is it then?
She calls herself a bottomless pit
How performative
The perfect candidate for an after-hours
Like a shark
In a school yard
She knows her power
A planted tree
With the promise to flower.
Still, she cowers
Saving her energy for the bigger villains
The ones who tower over her
Like monsters do
Calling her to use
Put the mask back onto the face
Thrust herself into the race
With those who have something to prove
She claimed my ecosystem is my safety net
I bet you wonder if I’ve made it out safely yet
Head down
Well behaved
Obedient
Enslaved
She use to say it’s cuz she likes to share
But I know
That’s fake
Nobody enjoys laying bare
For a stake
Vultures are well aware
What a snack she would make
Her fleeting ways
Are never questioned
The taste of guilt is all she’s known.
Eat without attention.
She hates the way she has to go
A glutton for punishment
She takes herself wherever she goes
No promises
No need
To be confident
The emptiness is heaven sent.
She roams
The road is home.
The wheel that steers
Becomes the pen
She removes the mask of sadness, then
Looks past the paths
That lead to pain
Embrace that life is madness
The black hole
is comforting
doesn’t judge her
For the songs she sings
For all the bags
She pretends are wings
This is not a girl filled with hate
Just a woman with a need
To keep herself safe.
credits
from ZOETRY,
released April 21, 2022
written and performed by Zoey Pricelys Roy
music produced by Omar Obeatz Ballantyne
Produced on the MPC1000, “Nosthaigia” documents time spent in Thailand via regional music. Available here in an exclusive color vinyl. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 24, 2024